Another day....

I keep telling myself that today i'm going to journal...and that day stretches into tomorrow and the next and one more for good measure. Well, here it is today lol. I have gotten to speak some people in RL the last few days, apparently there is a small group here in Pueblo and i am excited about being able to meet others and talk with them. I love all my friends in the chat room but, it's not quite the same as getting to talk to O/one face to face and as my ultimate goal is 24/7 TPE, being able to serve One...well online just only goes so far. There is a parade at the end of the month here and i look forward to that, and sometime this week i am going to see if the group wouldn't like to meet somewhere for a munch...am i scared..no..nervous...some, after all, i'm talking about the rest of my life here lol. But, the excitement overshadows any nervousness i have and thats what i cling too on the days when i wonder if i will ever see RL ...somewhere there is a light at the end for this one.

Do i or don't i.....

This one is sooo mucked up lately, i want sooo much but, what i want always seems to be out of reach. When this one came into the lifestyle she thought that things would be easier for her, to learn about who she is, what her needs were and are, what her interests were and to find One who could love her. 

Feeling great today~!

This morning this one woke feeling better than she has in a few weeks. Her desire to walk this path and be whole and happy with it is strong, and even though she does not currently have One she can share it with she can still learn and grow and serve in small ways. 

The Aftermath

What does one do in the aftermath of a failed relationship? one picks up the shattered pieces and moves on...This one may be submissive but, she is very strong with a sense of who she is and what she needs. Just because she gives her Dominant(s) the power over her does not mean that she becomes a doormat she is still strong. This one has connected and reconnected with several new friends and one older but very dear friend. she doesn't know what the coming days or weeks or months will bring in her life but, she knows that with their strength, love and support this one will continue her journey. she will continue to grow and learn and someday she WILL have her hearts desire and be with One she can Respect, Love, and Serve with everything she is. All the pain and kink is frosting on the cake for her and if she can but find someone who is willing to take her and teach her, guide her, have the desire to be with her...she would be happy and complete.