In the end.....

So, the skinny is this, the Masters wife, the one He was divorcing had a stroke in the early Am today. It is a sad situation but, caused because her lack of care for her own person and health. She made bad choices in her life and because of it caused herself to become morbidly obese with a cocktail of medical issues because of it. So, now, once again I am faced with Master again choosing her over me. His since of responsibility to her make no sense to me whats so ever. I cannot continue on with being second in His life, or anyones life, I may be a self proclaimed submissive/slave...but I have feelings and needs too. And if I am giving EVERYTHING of myself to the One..then I have the right to expect the same. I may love Master but, I cannot accept the scraps that seem to be offered. I am not sure if I want to cry or get angry,I bounce from one emotion to another, I moved to Denver to be with Him, I even made sacrafices in being with my son to do so. Yet, I am not good enough for the same commitment. I am not worth the same level of of commitment.....