Needs and Changes

There are times in my life I wonder what makes the struggle worth it...why do  I continue to fight and claw my way through my life. Well, here I am 45 and I have no clue where life is going, how I'm going to get there or where it will end, all I know is that I'm struggling to find decent work, trying to raise my 10 year old son and fighting it out in courts with my ex....and seemingly not making any headway...my Master is here in Denver and I love Him desperately yet, not sure where that will go as He has His own struggles. I am clinging to a hope that MAYBE someday things will start to head in a direction that makes sense. Where i can begin to stabilize my emotions, and have some breathing room. WHEN will the stress go away!